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It All Stems From Childhood

by Pretty Addicted

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1.
Do your chores, go to school, child stay in line, Keep your thoughts to yourself and you'll be just fine. Never shout, never once make your parents snap, Always seen, never heard, yeah just shut your trap. Opinions mean as much as nothing in this household, Sit at the table, eat your food and do as you're told. Want in one hand, shit in the other, see what fills first, What if I told you nursery rhymes were written to pervert? Like I'm a little teapot, short and stout, Fuck shit up and then walk out! My shrink tells me I'm a nutjob, That I'm too crazy to play. It all stems from childhood, The grown ups made me this way. My innocence is so long dead, Ripped from my head in young days. It all stems from childhood, Rebellion was a phase (but how I'm broken now). Wipe your face, make up off, you look like a queer, No you don't have a style, long as you live here. Stand up straight when you speak, child don't you slack, Don't you dare make that face, are you answering back? Your cries will get you all of nowhere in this damn home, Get used to your shadow cos you are all alone. Write in your diary all you want, they will read it, If there's a God you'll be away one day from this shit. Like I'm a little teapot, short and sick, When I grow up you can suck my dick! They can't, they won't, they don't love you. They will, they must, only judge you. Stay out, stay quiet, stay in your room. Don't whine, don't shine, your time is soon. They can't, they won't, they don't love you. They will, they must, only judge you. Stay out, stay quiet, stay in your room. They'll never hear, they'll never know, it's they who made you broken inside!
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Scapegoat 05:19
I fit your picture of the one, Coerces children into wrong. Come kids, follow me like rats, Listen to your piper's song. I am the boogeyman of lies, I am your demon in disguise. I'll make you bad just like me, I gave that apple to Snow White. You wag your fingers at mine, You can't be in the firing like. And I'm so easy to blame, I'm blunt as fuck and speak my mind. How ignorance is truly bliss, you kill your victims with a kiss. And you will never cry, Or see the truth you've always missed. See the truth you've always missed. And you're not so good, I'm not so bad. What you think you had on me you never did. You spit my way, your heart is cold, You've got my face on voodoo dolls. Like I'm the devil himself, I'll get inside and take your souls. I piss you off without a word, The time you give me is absurd. The sheeple need you back, Go back and tell them what you've heard. You need a scapegoat to survive, You've got no dreams, no drive. I've got my sights on success, Don't need your hate to feel alive. Backstab me, it means one thing, You're all behind me, let that sting. I wash my hands of you, It's time to brush off everything. Time to brush off everything. You thought you'd win if you could break me, no. I'll never cave so you can save me, oh no. Your cascade of lies has never phased me, no no no. The bullshit in your mind is crazy, no no no. And you're just looking for the scapegoat. You're just looking for the scapegoat, looking for the.
3.
Mania 06:00
I haven't slept for days, my mind is working like a whore, Here's me on top of the world, I'm escalating for sure. Is my crazy showing? Oh God take my brain away, Left in the dark so long you're bound to act up in the day (let the voices take me away). In my head I'm a god, oh my god I'm a star. I can't sleep, I can't sleep a wink, Can't stop, I can't do nothing but think. I can't shut the fuck up, I can't breathe, The party's never over, I can't leave. I fly, this feeling's making me dance, And I cry, this pain is like a romance. In my head I'm a god, I'm a star, But that's the beautiful mania. In my head I'm a god, oh my god I'm a star. I live my life in the realms of only black and white (I never stop dwelling), Intoxicated by dreams, reality is trite (Can't ever tell the real thing). The way I see truth is like a fucking circus, The speed I'm thinking it makes the people nervous. I'm holding today, tomorrow I'll be hopeless, Just let me live in this lipstick mess. In my head I'm a god, I'm a star. In my tortured head it's wonderful When I lose my mind, not sane at all. Because here I find I'm beautiful, And I can feel I've won the war. My broken bones they just forget, Don't worry where we've been, just let This manic state take over me, Hey Precious, look who you can be!
4.
Oh Briony, I went to see what filled your head. What got you here; I felt your fear, I felt your dread. I saw you jump; I saw the way you stopped your pain. I wanted out; I thought about doing the same. Oh Briony, I got to see into the black. It was unkind; I couldn't find my journey back. I guess I'm not as strong as you; I couldn't bare. I'l wait for the train, your face again; save me a chair. I looked into the abyss and I almost fell, Evil clutching me under some sick spell. I saw hell in the flesh before I ever felt life. Stood on the edge of the world, I will never forget, The way my soul cried out; I wasn't done yet. Had to see hell in the flesh before I ever felt life. I looked into the abyss and I almost fell in. I looked into the abyss and I almost fell in. I looked into the abyss and I almost fell in. I looked into the abyss and I almost fell in. They called it heresy; the acts you did, the way you flew But I called it victory and they'll never take that away from you. I know the way you felt the day you dealt, I've been there too. And the shadows want me back but they'll never have me back cos I'm new. Oh Briony.
5.
Bad people, loud noise, getting head from ugly boys, Don't care one bit. Black mirrors, white lines, telling you about my life, Talking such shit. Half naked out the bag, neckin' drinks until I gag, Where have you been? Piss poor party whore, pissing up the back door, Never be clean. I'm seeing monkeys in space. Bad choices, drunk blind, make up running, I don't mind, Where have you been? Falling out the window ledge, pretend we're sick to have an edge, Reflexes so slow. Five finger discount, drugs are free, any amount, My medicine. Hell, heaven, purgatory, blurry vision, see all three, I'm going all in. Incredible sights I see tonight, I wanna hump something and I wanna fight. Such beautiful colours in the air, Spinning around with vomit in my hair. I got a cute girl holding me up, I can't life my feet cos my shoes are stuck. If only the real world was this real, I'd stay one more night just to feel. I'm seeing monkeys, I'm seeing monkeys in space.
6.
I want your body and you need me so much, The feel of pleasure in this place you can touch. Safe to assume that you're going to be mine, Disgusting erotica when I drink you like wine. Come away, just us, lay with me, look to the sun. Passion so intense that violent sex is not enough. Looking for the one, looking for the one to love, In a circus of the depraved. Finding paradise, tasting it between your thighs. Baby is it you? Have you come to change my life? You could be the one, you could be the one I love, In a circus of the depraved. Felt your excitement and I've seen you so weak, And you get me so hard I forget how to speak. Communicate with you with only my tongue, I wanna be your maker, your only one. I'm going to waste, I've been so lonely, I know you've been lonely too. Your eyes they tell me that you want me, Let's do what lovers do. Our pornography is so lovely, You own me and I own you. Kiss me like they do in movies, Be like I never knew.
7.
I used to play with a boy; his name was death. He'd sneak up on me at night; I'd feel his breath. He'd tell me secrets about the world below. We'd dance, he'd fuck me and then he'd up and go. When I was young I believed that I was bad. I stayed up talking to myself just going mad. This boy was my only escape; my only friend. I'd put my lipstick on and let him drive me round the bend. So diabolical; the pain and pleasure of pretend. I can't bare to look so don't make me look. My nighttime pal he knows my sins so well I can't bare to look so don't make me look. No hope in hell of ever getting well. I wonder where did my mind go? Cos in my head I'm still twelve years old. I'm cold and I'm damaged, looking for the nighttime fix, Cos I'm tired and sick on my own. I wonder where did my mind go? Cos in my head I'm still twelve years old. I'm cold and I'm damaged, looking for the nighttime fix, Cos I'm tired and sick on my own. Twinkle twinkle little lie, You're a bad kid, go to your room and cry. Bad kid, bad kid, say your prayers, He will get you unawares. Bad kids get what they deserve And you get much worse if you lose your nerve. I can't bare to look so don;t make me look. I can't bare to look so don;t make me look.
8.
Disappointed again, I wonder why I awoke. A million things gone wrong before I've even spoke. Seems like I'm just too weak to even get myself up. Another day in hell, another lifetime stuck. Another, another, another bad dream. Except it, it's truly a very real thing. I'm tired, I'm wired, I'm slowly falling. Defective perspective, no use in trying. Play that haunting melody while I dry my eyes. Fill my head for a moment with pretty lies. Life is shit and sometimes I can't even fight. Overwhelming and so painful to get it right. So I look up to the sky, I feel dead inside and I see no future, I see no future. Tell me what's it all for? Why should I play the part? Cos there's a fucking hole in my fucking heart. My eyes have seen too much, my soul has grown too old. I've wandered round for a thousand seasons and I'm told I'm still going nowhere. So I look up to the sky, I feel dead inside and I see no future, I see no future. Play that haunting melody, that haunting melody, Fill my head for a moment. Life is shit, (life is shit), life is shit, (life is shit), Sometimes I can't even fight, Overwhelming and so painful to get it right.
9.
Come into my world of fuck,  Let me show you how it's done.  Say the things out loud that they think  Then you piss off everyone.  They say I swear too much,  Put on a bad display.  Is it ok to be a cunt  If I join your dick-suck soiree?  It's not that I don't care,  It's that I really don't.  Everyday they wait for me to fold  and it kills them that I won't.  You know you want my ass,  That hatefuck on your mind.  Let us get this out the way  and I'll bang you till your eyes go blind.  (In the land of the blind the one eyed man is king.)  I got a filthy whore mouth, you know you gotta hate me.  I got a filthy whore mouth, you know you wanna fuck me.  I got a filthy whore mouth.  I keep my whiskey hand strong and my pimp hand stronger.  I keep my whiskey hand strong and my pimp hand stronger.  I keep my whiskey hand strong,  I keep my whiskey hand strong,  I keep my whiskey hand,  I keep my whiskey hand strong and my pimp hand stronger.  So keep your whiskey hand strong and your pimp hand stronger Crackheads! 
10.
KidRave 04:53
Time is speeding up, the world is on fire! I'm like a kid in a rave, hyper desire. Mind is closing in, my thoughts are chaotic. My paranoid overtakes, helpless to stop it. I'm not making sense, I'm starting to spiral. The dragons are chasing me, a vicious cycle. Anxious, talking shit, no grip on what's real. I'm running with the insane, easier to feel. There's a crazy brewing inside my mind. Little ball of chaos, I was designed. There's a crazy brewing inside my mind. Watching and waiting and hoping for the voices to stop, Can't I just have five minutes peace in my head? Cycling and finding the answers to my questions are wrong, Adding one and one and making three instead. Sounds are slowing down, the waves are magnetic. I'm jumping round and round; hypomanic. Nothing's fast enough, no one is hazy. I'm like a kid in a rave, normal is crazy. Something is looking at me, something from the back of my mind.
11.
I saw you on the other side, I thought I saw you beckon me. You put your hand out and I thought what's that about? I know I saw the other side, I know I saw you beckon me. You put your hand out and I thought what's that about? So I'll see you, see you on the other side.
12.
I'm finding it hard to see with all these tears from my head, I'm finding it hard to breathe with my throat filled with lead. I can't explain it enough; I'm done, I just feel wrecked all the time. I'm emotionally exhausted and I think I can see the other side. Never ever go to sleep but I keep waking up anyway, They used to call my name, now in the silence I stay. And you shouldn't go round telling fucked up people you love them, Cos we're loyal enough to believe motherfuckers and that's just it. You shouldn't go round, you shouldn't go round, You shouldn't go round the houses about it. Why did you let me believe it was real? WHY?! See you on the other side, See you on the other side. Where I can hide, Where they will never find me.

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released August 6, 2014

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